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bold the things that are true
On the Downside, so far this year i...
Endured my first heartbreak.
Cried more than I ever have in my life.
Made bad judgement calls.
Altered my life in a way I'm not comfortable with.
Made mistakes.
Left innocence in the past.
Drank too much.
Was afraid.
Betrayed my morals.
Lost trust.
Was hypocritical.
Hurt others.
Hurt myself.
Lost myself.
Felt alone.
Lost friends.
Saw the effects of suicide.
Was angry.
Was self-concious.
Ate too much, sometimes too little.
Thought too much.
Didn't think enough.
Followed the crowd.
Gave in.
On a Brighter Note, so far this year...
Moved halfway across country.
Gained amazing friends.
Was loved.
Loved.
Found someone who makes me smile.
Saw myself in the future.
Applied to colleges.
Laughed uncontrollably.
Went to the beach.
Smiled.
Hugged.
Kissed.
Cuddled.
Felt at ease.
Grew as a person.
This year I will...
Graduate.
Be accepted to college.
Learn from my mistakes.
Smile, laugh, love, hug, kiss, dream and learn.
Follow my own course.
Not drink to get drunk.
Or maybe, I just won't drink at all....hahha yeah right ?
I won't listen to other people, either.
Find myself.
Lose weight.
Be happy.
Have hope.
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[09 Mar 2005|09:38am] |
YOUR NAME
(1) The singular boring question: What is your name? Alexandra Durling
(2) If you had been born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name have been? John or Grant
(3) Would you name a child of yours after you? I wanna name my son Dennis Jr. so we could call him DJ but i found out last night that Dennis is Dennis jr. so we're naming him dennis james lol. cuz i really like the name DJ
(4) If you had to switch first names with a friend of yours, who would you switch with? umm Amanda orr Becca
(5) What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name? People call me Alexandria alot. (6) If you were to become famous, would you drop your last name? i dont really think so. it'd depend.
DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
(7) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? mhm
(8) Do you think God has a gender? who really knows something like that?
(9) Do you think science counteracts religion? i duno..i guess?
(10) Do you believe in organized religion? yeah i guess. i dont believe in a lot of the stuff that my religion believes in though.
(11) Where do you think we go when we die? heaven..or hell lol. i really liked megs thingy too tho.
(12) Do you feel a little funny thinking about the questions in this section? no not really
HUMOR
(13) How easy is it to make you laugh? are you kidding?? very easy.
(14) What person you know makes you laugh the most? dennis, lizzy, TAYLA, bickford and dave ellison.
(15) Do you laugh at jokes you know you shouldn't? mhm
(16) Do you tell jokes you know you shouldn't? lol sometimes?
(17) What words instantly make you laugh or at least smile? words that make me smile are when dennis says "i love you" ...idk what words make me laugh it really depends.
(18) What do you think is the funniest thing you've ever said or written?i'm not really sure?
MUSIC
(19) Do you ever dance to music when nobody's watching? ya
(20) What is/are the worst song(s) you have ever heard? i duno
(21) What song(s) do you wish you could understand a little better? never thought about it..
(22) What song(s) are constantly in your head? omg since saturday i've had this song stuck in my head but i can't think what the name is.
(23) What song(s) do you think describe your personality best? i'm too tired to think about this.
(24) If you were to serenade the object of your affections, which song(s) baby i'm amazed by you by tim mcgraw or iris by the goo goo dolls.
(25) If the object of your affections were to serenade you, what song(s) would you hope he or she used? baby i'm amazed by you by tim mcgraw hah he sang that to me the other day : )
MOVIES
(26) What movie(s) do you love that nobody else seems to? i duno
(27) Do you agree with the idea that sequels are always worse than the original? sometimes
(28) Who's your favorite Star Wars character? i never really watched that.
(29) What kind of movie do you think there should be more of? i duno their are alot of every movie
(30) What movie(s) do you simply not understand the appeal of? i dunoo
FOOD
(31) When eating, are you more concerned with taste or healthiness? taste duh
(32) What's your favorite kind of cheese? american
(33) What do you think your answer to the previous question reveals about your personality? umm i'm not quite sure
(34) If you knew exactly what went into Chinese food, hamburger meat, etc., would you still eat it? i duno it depends on what it really is lol
(35) Do you ever feel guilty eating meat? yeah...but it tastes good.
COMPUTERS
(36) Mac or PC? pc
(37) How much do you actually care about the inner workings of your computer, as long as it works? i dont care.
(38) Do you ever begin preferring IMs to other forms of conversation? sometimes
(39) Do you find you're different talking through IMs than face-to-face or on the telephone? it depends on the person i'm talking to
THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES
(41) Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender? only so i could fuck like every girl and not get called a slut haha. and i wana see what it feels like to have a boner? lol
(42) What do you love most about the other gender? um i dont know?
(43) What do you dislike most about the other gender? CONFUSING
(44) What do you understand least about the other gender? when they like someone and they have a wierd way of showing it
CELEBRITIES
(45) Do you sometimes see a movie or watch a show just because a good-looking celebrity is in it? sometimes
(46) What celebrity's autograph do you want most? usherr maybe?
(47) Have people ever said you looked like a celebrity, and if so, who? there was one but i can't think of who it was lol.
(48) If there was to be a movie about you, who do you think should play you (in personality, looks or both)? umm i'm not sure
(49) Does it ever annoy you when you know someone is a celebrity but you can't remember why? what?
(50) If you could enter any celebrity's mind like in "Being John Malkovich", whose would you enter? i'm not really sure...
(51) Do you want to be John Malkovich? if i knew who that was?
NUMBERS
(52) Do you laugh when you hear or read the number 69? am i 10? why would i laugh?
(53) Were you lying about your answer to the previous question? no
(54) Do you actually know your Social Security Number? no i really don't
(55) Do you actually know your IP address? no
(56) Do you know what an IP address is? yea
(57) Do you know the four-character extension on your ZIP code? who does?
(58) Ever thought there were too many numbers floating around in our lives? yeah
(59) Does your head begin to hurt when you think of infinity, imaginary numbers, irrational numbers, etc.? i hate math?
(60) What do you think of pi? 3.14
LOVE, SEX AND ALL THAT
(61) Did you get a little frightened or uncomfortable seeing this as a section title? nope
(62) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? i'd feel bad. i'd just tell them i'm not interested in them at the moment, but who knows whats to come in the future.
(63) Do you prefer getting to know someone first before dating them or going in "blind"? if they're good looking then i guess its okay. but i usually like to get to know the person.
(64) Could you carry on a relationship with someone with the same first name as a family member? i dont know?
(65) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? umm i've asked a guy out before?
(66) What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment? i've done it once...it wasn't as bad cuz then your not attached afterwards...
(67) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? i dunno? usually if you like the person they become physically attractive to you.
(68) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good-looking? maybe sometimes.
(69) Would you be willing to give up sex in exchange for an emotional commitment you knew would last? oh boy...idk. yeah
(70) Do you think the number of the last question was a coincidence? uh go aheaddd.
POSSESSIONS
(71) What is your favorite possession? clothes
(73) How badly do you want it? want what?
(74) Have you ever seen 'The Exorcist'? yes. how is that a possession?
(75) How long did it take you to understand why the last question is in this section? hah i didnt even read this before i wrote how is that a possession.
HOLIDAYS
(76) Does Christmas music too far away from Christmas annoy you? not really
(77) How old do you think you will be before you stop liking getting older? 28 maybe?
(78) What was the best Halloween costume you ever had? i duno
(79) What was the worst Halloween costume you ever had? i duno
(80) What holiday do you think has still managed to retain its original meaning? def not valentines day...idk
(81) There are currently no federal holidays during August- what should be put there? um. ALEX DAY duh
MEMORIES
(82) How good is your short-term memory? good
(83) How good is your long-term memory? good
(84) What is your earliest memory? i dont remember.
(85) What is your happiest memory? i dont know i have ALOT.
(86) What is your strangest memory? theres one but it would take FOREVER.
(87) What song, movie, etc. do you wish you could memorize? napolean dynamite
TEARS
(88) What movie makes/made you cry? armagedon
(89) What book makes/made you cry? books don't make me cry
(90) What song makes/made you cry? maybe shes an angel by tommy shane steiner and iris by the goo goo dolls
(91) What makes/made you laugh so hard you cried? my friends
THREE TRULY RANDOM QUESTIONS
(92) Would you like to be cloned? no
(93) Do you wish you could be alive when the world was ending, just to experience it? deff not...WAY to emotional to watch my friends dying.
(94) Scaramouche, scaramouche, will you do the fandango? what the fuck? i dont get it
THIS SURVEY
(95) Do you think that one hundred and one questions is too long? yeah
(96) Do you think the one hundred interesting questions actually were interesting? some of them
(97) Are you sorry you began filling it out? sorta
(98) What question do you wish it had asked? i dunno
(99) How would you have answered it? i have no idea
THE TWO MOST IMPORTANT QUESTIONS
(100) When was the last time you let the people you love know you love them? yesterday
(101) What do you want the people who are reading this survey to know? i love you no matter what happens
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hi...just wanted to say i made an xanga thing so everyone can read stuff?
its www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=aspx
k, bye!
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"I've known you for how long? 10-11 years? ...ive seen you grow...i remember when ur mom was pregnet with both mindy and grant...i remember everything...ive seen you struggle ive seen you strive...you've gotten away with a lot of shit...too much shit some say...i love you with all my heart but ur card with ghs is over...you need a break u need some GOOD influences in your life...you need to start living up to ur standards ...you are a SMART girl..and you know it...apply yourself...trust ive heard this said to me a BILLION and one times...but take this one to heart...we all love you and we'll all miss you...you just need some time away....look at it this way...when you come back ...you'll be completely diffrent...you'll walk into newly renovated GHS fall of 2006 and people will look at you and say SHIT she got HOT. and you know what im gona say...cracker please don't even try this girl is mine ive know this girl for 14 years...u best lay off."
woww isn't it funny that someone that "never cared about me" wrote that? haha i find it quite hilarious :)
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Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end?
There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled.
In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting: it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was.
At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us knowing how, without us even knowing why. And we must forget not because we have to but because we have to.
In letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy but in batallion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head,every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always reminds you of him. It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other.
I don't know if it's worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heals all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all love stories end with "...and they live happily ever after."
Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we had to live up.
It's over. He's gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn't always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled. Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.
I'm gona put that not under friends only...just cuz i think its that good
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p.s.
I GET MY BRACES OFF TOMMORROW!!!!!
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I've known you for how long? 10-11 years? ...ive seen you grow...i remember when ur mom was pregnet with both mindy and grant...i remember everything...ive seen you struggle ive seen you strive...you've gotten away with a lot of shit...too much shit some say...i love you with all my heart but ur card with ghs is over...you need a break u need some GOOD influences in your life...you need to start living up to ur standards ...you are a SMART girl..and you know it...apply yourself...trust ive heard this said to me a BILLION and one times...but take this one to heart...we all love you and we'll all miss you...you just need some time away....look at it this way...when you come back ...you'll be completely diffrent...you'll walk into newly renovated GHS fall of 2006 and people will look at you and say SHIT she got HOT. and you know what im gona say...cracker please don't even try this girl is mine ive know this girl for 14 years...u best lay off.
that made me cry so hard.
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this is bullshit..
i'm honestly gona kill myself guys.
i cannot deal with this...an all girls catholic school
CAN YOU PICTURE ME, ALEX DURLING, AT AN ALL GIRLS SCHOOL!??!?!?!!?
omg i'm gona miss you guys so much :'( i can't stop crying.
in case you didn't know i'm giong to mercy starting in 3 weeks :(
thanks everyone for supporting me..i truly love you guys and i honestly will miss you so fucking much you dotn even know.
<33 xoxo
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woot i changed the colors on my lj...annd i fixed jeannas lj for her! andd i'm fixing katrins for her! golly gosh i'm just a fixer today! haha look at me and corrines convo right now hahaha...
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:29:33 PM): stir up the mix wiht kids bop SIX
cookiezncorrine (2:30:15 PM): come again?
cookiezncorrine (2:30:24 PM): u know i dont speack spanish
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:30:27 PM): a commercial for kids bob six
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:30:32 PM): bop*
cookiezncorrine (2:30:50 PM): haha i hate those
cookiezncorrine (2:30:52 PM): like woah
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:30:58 PM): my sister has one lol
cookiezncorrine (2:31:10 PM): burn it!lol
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:31:26 PM): otay
cookiezncorrine (2:32:30 PM): otay?
cookiezncorrine (2:32:31 PM): *okay
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:32:36 PM): no OTAY
cookiezncorrine (2:32:45 PM): o OTAY
cookiezncorrine (2:32:47 PM): sounds gtm
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:33:31 PM): your gtm
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:33:32 PM): :-)
cookiezncorrine (2:33:53 PM): good to me
cookiezncorrine (2:33:56 PM): thanx
cookiezncorrine (2:33:57 PM): u too
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:34:04 PM): nah gay
cookiezncorrine (2:34:20 PM): wut?
cookiezncorrine (2:34:24 PM): that made no sense
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:34:32 PM): your gay to me :-)
cookiezncorrine (2:35:00 PM): oohh
cookiezncorrine (2:35:04 PM): who told you?
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:35:09 PM): your mom
cookiezncorrine (2:35:10 PM): i knew sam couldnt keep it on the dl
cookiezncorrine (2:35:16 PM): my mom is in CA
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:35:31 PM): i know shes been calling me everyday
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:35:37 PM): me and ur mom are tight you know
cookiezncorrine (2:35:39 PM): haha sweet
cookiezncorrine (2:35:43 PM): she didnt even call me!
cookiezncorrine (2:35:45 PM): wut a fart
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:36:03 PM): that sucks...you know your not a good daughter when ur mom calls your friend and not you
cookiezncorrine (2:36:22 PM): ouch
cookiezncorrine (2:36:29 PM): i need some antiseptics for thatburn
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:36:34 PM): hahahaha ilu
cookiezncorrine (2:36:58 PM): i love u dos
cookiezncorrine (2:37:03 PM): its just a huge tub of love
cookiezncorrine (2:37:06 PM): minus the tub
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:37:14 PM): lmao
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:37:17 PM): its like a huge of love?
cookiezncorrine (2:38:01 PM): yup
ShOrTnSwEeT24890 (2:38:19 PM): FUN!
cookiezncorrine (2:38:38 PM): i know dude
haha
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[24 May 2004|07:17pm] |
If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal
we all know who that is...
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[07 May 2004|09:12pm] |
| Rate yourself on a scale from 1-10 | </td>| Your Physical Attractiveness: | 5 | | Your Face: | 4 | | Your Chest: | 2 | | Your butt: | 7 | | Your Personality: | 8 | | Your Sense of Humor: | 8 | | How Polite are you?: | 6 | | How nice are you?: | 7 | | Your athletisism: | 8 | | How Lazy are you?: | 8=VERY | | Your Musical Talent?: | 6 | | How much of a pushover (some who gets taken advantage of easily) are you?: | 8 | | How helpful are you?: | 7 | | How much of a friendly person are you?: | 8 | | How well do your friends think you can keep a secret?: | 8 | | How well do your friends trust you?: | 8 | | How selfish do you consider yourself?: | 6 | | How much of a liar are you?: | 3 | | How annoying do you consider yourself?: | 5 | | How popular do you think you are?: | um...idk? | | How nice are your muscles?: | 3 | | How religious are you?: | 4 | | How much of a workaholic are you?: | 3 | | How clumsy are you?: | 10000 | | How creative are you?: | 6 | | How much of a dedicated person are you?: | 7 | | How good is your fashion sense?: | 7? | | Are you the appropriate weight?: | 0 | | How much do you gossip?: | 4 |
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| Are you a virgin?: | no | | Have you tried cigaretts?: | yes | | Have you had liquor before legal age?: | yes | | Do you smoke pot or have tried it?: | yes | | Do you do any other drug?: | no | | Do you cuss?: | yes | | Do you have a quick temper?: | yes | | Have you ever gotten in a fist fight?: | yes | | How old are you?: | 15 | | How many friends do you have?: | who counts? | | Do you think you're Bad?: | idk? | | Did you like this survey? | </td>
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Raw contents below.] <table style="font-size:10px;"><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>Rate yourself on a scale from 1-10</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Your Physical Attractiveness:</td><td>5 </td></tr><tr><td>Your Face:</td><td>4 </td></tr><tr><td>Your Chest:</td><td>2 </td></tr><tr><td>Your butt:</td><td>7 </td></tr><tr><td>Your Personality:</td><td>8 </td></tr><tr><td>Your Sense of Humor:</td><td>8 </td></tr><tr><td>How Polite are you?:</td><td>6 </td></tr><tr><td>How nice are you?:</td><td>7 </td></tr><tr><td>Your athletisism:</td><td>8 </td></tr><tr><td>How Lazy are you?:</td><td>8=VERY </td></tr><tr><td>Your Musical Talent?:</td><td>6 </td></tr><tr><td>How much of a pushover (some who gets taken advantage of easily) are you?:</td><td>8 </td></tr><tr><td>How helpful are you?:</td><td>7 </td></tr><tr><td>How much of a friendly person are you?:</td><td>8 </td></tr><tr><td>How well do your friends think you can keep a secret?:</td><td>8 </td></tr><tr><td>How well do your friends trust you?:</td><td>8 </td></tr><tr><td>How selfish do you consider yourself?:</td><td>6 </td></tr><tr><td>How much of a liar are you?:</td><td>3 </td></tr><tr><td>How annoying do you consider yourself?:</td><td>5 </td></tr><tr><td>How popular do you think you are?:</td><td>um...idk? </td></tr><tr><td>How nice are your muscles?:</td><td>3 </td></tr><tr><td>How religious are you?:</td><td>4 </td></tr><tr><td>How much of a workaholic are you?:</td><td>3 </td></tr><tr><td>How clumsy are you?:</td><td>10000 </td></tr><tr><td>How creative are you?:</td><td>6 </td></tr><tr><td>How much of a dedicated person are you?:</td><td>7 </td></tr><tr><td>How good is your fashion sense?:</td><td>7? </td></tr><tr><td>Are you the appropriate weight?:</td><td>0 </td></tr><tr><td>How much do you gossip?:</td><td>4 </td></tr></table><br /><a href="http://www.bzoink.com/surveys.php?id=1176" title="Rate yourself">Rate yourself</a> brought to you by <a href="http://www.bzoink.com" title="Free Online Surveys - BZOINK!">BZOINK!</a> now u guys copy this and put it in a comment and put your own numbers, k? <table style="font-size:10px;"><tr><td>Are you a virgin?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Have you tried cigaretts?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Have you had liquor before legal age?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Do you smoke pot or have tried it?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Do you do any other drug?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Do you cuss?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Do you have a quick temper?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Have you ever gotten in a fist fight?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>How old are you?:</td><td>15 </td></tr><tr><td>How many friends do you have?:</td><td>who counts? </td></tr><tr><td>Do you think you're Bad?:</td><td>idk? </td></tr><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>Did you like this survey?</strong></tr></td></table><br /><a href="http://www.bzoink.com/surveys.php?id=2998" title="Are you "Bad"?">Are you "Bad"?</a> brought to you by <a href="http://www.bzoink.com" title="Free Online Surveys - BZOINK!">BZOINK!</a> <table style="font-size:10px;"><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>This is about you....</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Hi!! How are you?:</td><td>pretty good, you? </td></tr><tr><td>What's the weather like outside?:</td><td>so warm! </td></tr><tr><td>Are you bored?:</td><td>yup </td></tr><tr><td>So am I, want to fill out this survey??:</td><td>i think thats what i'm doing. </td></tr><tr><td>Oh good! I thought you'd say that!!:</td><td>awesome </td></tr><tr><td>What are you favorite shoes?:</td><td>i dont have any. </td></tr><tr><td>Which shirt of yours is your favorite??:</td><td>idk </td></tr><tr><td>Which Jeans?:</td><td>um..the ones from forever 21...i duno where they are </td></tr><tr><td>When you leave the house, what do you make sure is in your purse?:</td><td>cell phone, money, ciggerates, lighter, makeup, lipgloss </td></tr><tr><td>Is a cell phone important?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>(If you have a car) Does it matter if your car is clean?:</td><td>if i had one, i guess it would </td></tr><tr><td>When you pull up to a stop light do you blare your radio?:</td><td>sometimes </td></tr><tr><td>What store do you head to, to buy shoes?:</td><td>um idk </td></tr><tr><td>Which store to buy a new outfit?:</td><td>hollister or weathervane </td></tr><tr><td>Would you max out a credit card there?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>Which person would you take to go shopping with you?:</td><td>my aunt or my cousin..or most of my friends </td></tr><tr><td>If you friend walked out in an outfit that was UGLY, would you be honest?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>If you looked better than her would you still tell her she looks better?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>Do you like the Beatles?:</td><td>not really </td></tr><tr><td>How about Smile Empty Soul?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>Three Days Grace?:</td><td>yup </td></tr><tr><td>Okay so what is YOUR favorite band or singer?:</td><td>i dont really have ONE </td></tr><tr><td>What is your dream job?:</td><td>social worker </td></tr><tr><td>Will you do whatever it takes to get it?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>What's your fav. show?:</td><td>the oc or one tree hill </td></tr><tr><td>Okay I'm so running out of things to say... do you care?:</td><td>not really </td></tr><tr><td>I'm short on time, oh well... Have a great day!!:</td><td>thanks.. </td></tr><tr><td>Make Smart Choices lol!!:</td><td>lol wow... </td></tr><tr><td>Bye!:</td><td>peace </td></tr></table><br /><a href="http://www.bzoink.com/surveys.php?id=2039" title="Survey of Randomness - buckle up!!">Survey of Randomness - buckle up!!</a> brought to you by <a href="http://www.bzoink.com" title="Free Online Surveys - BZOINK!">BZOINK!</a> <table style="font-size:10px;"><tr><td>Are you in love with someone?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Does he know?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Have you ever or are you dating this guy?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Have you ever kissed this guy?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Have you ever had sex with him?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Was he good in bed if so ?:</td><td>idk </td></tr><tr><td>Out of 10 rate his performance in bed?:</td><td>idk </td></tr><tr><td>Is it ok to think of someone else while having sex with him?:</td><td>no? </td></tr><tr><td>Wildest thing you have ever done to him in bed?:</td><td>i havn't </td></tr><tr><td>Wildest thing he has ever done to you in bed?:</td><td>nothing lol </td></tr><tr><td>Ever want to have a threesome?:</td><td>nope </td></tr><tr><td>If you had too, would it be with another guy or girl?, and who would it be?:</td><td>guy and idk </td></tr><tr><td>Ever wanted to have sex with another guy while with your man ?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Would you cheat?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>In one word what does he mean to you?:</td><td>everything </td></tr><tr><td>Have you told him lately what he means to you?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Are you open in how you feel for him?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>Is he romantic enough for you?:</td><td>not really </td></tr><tr><td>Whats the nicest thing he has ever done for you?:</td><td>walked to my house? </td></tr><tr><td>Whats the nicest thing you have done for him?:</td><td>um...not dumped him dispite what everyone has said </td></tr><tr><td>Are you happy to be with him?:</td><td>duh... </td></tr><tr><td>Has he said I love you to you yet?:</td><td>yeah :) </td></tr><tr><td>Aren't guys dumb that way?:</td><td>um? </td></tr><tr><td>If he left would you be happy?:</td><td>no. </td></tr><tr><td>Ever think or wish you could leave him?:</td><td>never </td></tr><tr><td>Do you ever talk about kids with him?:</td><td>nope </td></tr><tr><td>Do you ever talk about marriage with him?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Is he religious?:</td><td>haha no </td></tr><tr><td>Does he pay enough attention on you?:</td><td>most of the time </td></tr><tr><td>Are you bored of my questions?:</td><td>yeah..but i'm bored so its okay </td></tr></table><br /><a href="http://www.bzoink.com/surveys.php?id=1881" title="girlfriend">girlfriend</a> brought to you by <a href="http://www.bzoink.com" title="Free Online Surveys - BZOINK!">BZOINK!</a> <table style="font-size:10px;"><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>*~About You~*</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Name:</td><td>Alex Durling </td></tr><tr><td>Eyes:</td><td>greenish blue </td></tr><tr><td>Hair:</td><td>brown </td></tr><tr><td>Height:</td><td>5'0 </td></tr><tr><td>Age:</td><td>15 </td></tr><tr><td>City,State:</td><td>glastonbury, ct </td></tr><tr><td>School? if so grade:</td><td>yeah, 9 </td></tr><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>*~You Love~*</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Name:</td><td>Dave Bickford </td></tr><tr><td>Eyes:</td><td>bright blue </td></tr><tr><td>Hair:</td><td>dirty blonde </td></tr><tr><td>Height:</td><td>5'6 </td></tr><tr><td>Age:</td><td>15 </td></tr><tr><td>School? if so what grade:</td><td>yes, 10 </td></tr><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>*~Why.....~*</strong></tr></td><tr><td>...do you love them:</td><td>because...i can't explain it </td></tr><tr><td>...are you with them:</td><td>because i love him </td></tr><tr><td>...are they irresistable(sp?):</td><td>again...i can't explain it </td></tr><tr><td>...do they love you:</td><td>good question </td></tr><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>*~Faves~*</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Fav Physical Feature:</td><td>eyes </td></tr><tr><td>Fav Inner Feature:</td><td>sense of humor </td></tr><tr><td>Fav Phrase Your Love Says About You:</td><td>um i love you? </td></tr><tr><td>Fav Thing You Do With Them:</td><td>anything...except smoke </td></tr><tr><td>Fav Place To Go With Them:</td><td>my house or scotts house is fun too lol </td></tr></table><br /><a href="http://www.bzoink.com/surveys.php?id=2881" title="Love Survey">Love Survey</a> brought to you by <a href="http://www.bzoink.com" title="Free Online Surveys - BZOINK!">BZOINK!</a> <table style="font-size:10px;"><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>Simple Love Stuff</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Do you have a crush on anyone or are you dating anyone?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>If so, who?:</td><td>David Bickford </td></tr><tr><td>What do you like about that person?:</td><td>lots of stuff </td></tr><tr><td>Is he/she good looking?:</td><td>i guess </td></tr><tr><td>Can he/she sing?:</td><td>lol he trys </td></tr><tr><td>Can he/she play any instruments?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>Lovely Love</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Have your parents met your crush/bf/gf?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>If so, do they like him/her?:</td><td>yeah...well i guess </td></tr><tr><td>If not, why?:</td><td>they dont like that he smokes </td></tr><tr><td>If so, why?:</td><td>idk why? </td></tr><tr><td>What was the first thing your parents said to you about your crush/bf/gf?:</td><td>hes nice. </td></tr><tr><td>Do you agree with them?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>Why?:</td><td>cuz hes nice lol </td></tr><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>Life and Love</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Do you hope to marry this person?:</td><td>too far away. </td></tr><tr><td>Why?:</td><td>cuz it is. </td></tr><tr><td>Can you see yourself having kids with them?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>Have you made out with them yet?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Cuz you know that leads to forever with them rite?:</td><td>what kids or making out? i'm confused now </td></tr><tr><td>Would your kids be better looking if they took after your looks or his/hers:</td><td>um idk? </td></tr><tr><td>Why?:</td><td>cuz i'm dumb </td></tr><tr><td>Do you ever pray that you'll marry this person?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>How long have you liked them?:</td><td>since like...the beginning of the year. </td></tr><tr><td>Do your friends like them?:</td><td>some do, some dont </td></tr><tr><td>Does he/she like your friends?:</td><td>he likes some of them. </td></tr><tr><td>Does he/she truly like you or are they lying?:</td><td>well his friends tell me he says "i'm the best thing that ever happened to him" soo i think he really likes me...i hope. </td></tr><tr><td>Do you truly like him/her or are YOU lying?:</td><td>i love him. </td></tr><tr><td>Okay that's all =):</td><td>thanks </td></tr></table><br /><a href="http://www.bzoink.com/surveys.php?id=2260" title="LovingHim's LoVe QuIz">LovingHim's LoVe QuIz</a> brought to you by <a href="http://www.bzoink.com" title="Free Online Surveys - BZOINK!">BZOINK!</a> <table style="font-size:10px;"><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>Appearance</strong></tr></td><tr><td>What is your preferred hair colour in the opposite sex?:</td><td>brown </td></tr><tr><td>What is the perfect height?:</td><td>um taller then me </td></tr><tr><td>Weight?:</td><td>not too fat, not too skinny </td></tr><tr><td>Age?:</td><td>a little older, or the same age as me </td></tr><tr><td>Face shape: Round, oval, long, heart?:</td><td>i dont care </td></tr><tr><td>Clothing style?:</td><td>depends </td></tr><tr><td>Voice: Deep, high?:</td><td>deep </td></tr><tr><td>Do you like it when the opposite sex wears make-up?:</td><td>lmao no? </td></tr><tr><td>What about piercings or tattoos?:</td><td>nah </td></tr><tr><td>Shorts or jeans?:</td><td>jeans </td></tr><tr><td>Guys: Big boobs, medium, or small? Girls: Size matters?:</td><td>lol sometimes it does... </td></tr><tr><td>Skinny, not skinny but not chubby either, fat?:</td><td>not skinny but not chubby either </td></tr><tr><td>Muscular?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>Big lips or small lips?:</td><td>medium lips? </td></tr><tr><td>Big ass or small ass?:</td><td>doesn't really matter </td></tr><tr><td>What type of hair: Curly, straight, etc.?:</td><td>um..short straight </td></tr><tr><td>What is the best hair style in your opinion for the opposite sex?:</td><td>hat </td></tr><tr><td>Tall & skinny, short & skinny, tall & chubby, short & chubby?:</td><td>medium height, skinnyish </td></tr><tr><td>Flat stomach or a small little stomach?:</td><td>uh...6pac? </td></tr><tr><td>What's your opinion on hands?:</td><td>i dont really have one lol </td></tr><tr><td>Voluptuous or not?:</td><td>hes a guy.. </td></tr><tr><td>What's your opinion on legs?:</td><td>hopefully not too hairy </td></tr><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>Personality (Put either yes or no) Do you like the opposite sex if they're</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Openly romantic?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Sweet?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Tough?:</td><td>to an extent </td></tr><tr><td>Nice?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Funny?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Sarcastic?:</td><td>sometimes </td></tr><tr><td>Good sense of humor?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Emotionless?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Full of emotion?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Sensitive?:</td><td>not too much. </td></tr><tr><td>Thoughtful?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Observant?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Quiet?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>LOUD?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Mellow?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Crazy?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Hyper?:</td><td>not always </td></tr><tr><td>Respectful?:</td><td>yeah </td></tr><tr><td>Annoying?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Boring?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Sympathetic?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Empathetic?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Bubbly?:</td><td>uh no? </td></tr><tr><td>Superficial?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Listens well?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Helpful?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Mature?:</td><td>not TOO mature </td></tr><tr><td>Immature?:</td><td>not TOO immature. </td></tr><tr><td>Supportive?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Protective?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Cares more about the little things?:</td><td>what kinda little things? </td></tr><tr><td>Cares more about the big things?:</td><td>what kinda big things? </td></tr><tr><td>Profound?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Comforting?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Interesting?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Opinionated?:</td><td>..i guess. </td></tr><tr><td>Argumentative?:</td><td>not with me lol </td></tr><tr><td colspan="2"><strong>What you would want a lover to do or be like or make you feel (Yes or no)</strong></tr></td><tr><td>Safe?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Comfortable?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Sexy:</td><td>yes </td></tr></table><br /><a href="http://www.bzoink.com/surveys.php?id=2689" title="Ideal Lover">Ideal Lover</a> brought to you by <a href="http://www.bzoink.com" title="Free Online Surveys - BZOINK!">BZOINK!</a> its 11:00 now...i started this at like 9... |
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is it just me or does it seem like i've said bickfords name MUCH more then just 12 times?? lol
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I AM GOING TO MARRY HER...FUCK BICKFORD.
lol thanks soo much katherine...its soo prettyy!!
what do you guys think?? pretty right?
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